CHAPTER 19FEEL YOUR TOUCH
I want to know that when you walk away from me, you're that much more determined to come back. When you cry in my arms, you'll pull in closer toward me. When I feel the touch of your skin... I want you to feel me too because I've been standing beside you... and I've been standing for much too long. I desire to be with you.
In chapter nineteen of Cursed with Power, Celestria comes to realize a shocking new truth that awaits her in Grefin's manor. With reality, she must also come to accept some painful yet memorable past occurrences in her life. At last she may share a bond with someone close to her, but is it already too little too late? Has Celestria wasted too many years obsessing over the power she possesses? What is the point to looking back on old memories when they are long gone?
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Is this me? I thought. As I twirled back and forth with the dress, I felt foolish. Dyanna had always been the beautiful one; even Aunt Ilena had reminded me of that. The men pranced around her and offered her roses, while I walked ten steps behind her without receiving any attention at all. It had been that way ever since she was born, and after a while I had grown accustomed to it. The red hair that fell down my shoulders suddenly looked perfectly maintained. My green eyes, which I had always thought were dull, glistened with the dress.
“Everybody has always told me you can’t see love. When I look in your eyes, they stand corrected. Celestria, why must you have this effect on me?” Adam had once told me.
Backing away from the mirror, I reasoned with myself that I needed to leave. If I did not return to Alaire they would begin to wonder. I had already taken up enough time, but as I continued debating with myself I could not help but to think back to memories.
A great amount of thought and detail was put into the detail and the events that occurred within this chapter. Not only did Celestria face something difficult she felt she needed to be said, but she also had to admit to her readers the truth she hides in side. However, Celestria and the readers both are left with more questions. While a few truths are brought to the suffer, she is far from uncovering everything she desires to know.Despite an awkward situation at the end of the chapter, it is evident to both the reader and the author that there are many more chapters ahead. What lies in the future for Celestria Hale? What of Alaire Sencler? Their futures, like their hands, may or may not be intertwined. Only she can tell you what happens when next you read Cursed with Power.
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CHAPTER 18
What do you think happens? Can Alaire live?
I was unable to post yesterday because obviously it was Christmas, but I thought I'd post today and everyone would be understanding and forgive me.
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Celestria knows that Alaire's condition is only getting worst, so she begins to think back to a time when she thought her life was ending. When she was so close to death but managed to escape it.
Sometimes you do not realize how much you care about someone until you're standing beside them... watching them take their last breaths. Until you feel a tear leaving your eye and can gasp what you are about to lose.
Welcome to Grefin's manor. Alaire told Celestria this was where she would find his friend, but what he did not mention was who Grefin was and why he was significant to what they hope to accomplish. She knows that the journey into Finton City keeps her from finding out Leal's wellbeing, but with Alaire's life on the line Celestria must set her priorities straight.
And so a strange silence enters the manor. It fills the rooms, leaves Celestria motionless, and lastly brings out the worst of Celestria's fears.
“You need to be wearing this, Alaire. I want Him to watch over you when I cannot.”
Alas I did not get much sleep last night. As you could have figured out from the title of this post, I felt extremely sick and spent most of the sitting up in bed, hoping I would soon feel better.
If he was looking at you right now, would you dare to turn around and look back at him?
Alaire's life is hanging by a thread. Celestria does not know what's wrong with him and she knows of nothing that can help him. And that was when it happened.... She was so focused on Alaire, she did not realize...
Sometimes it's better to stay out of a fight, but Celestria has no choice. With Alaire down, she has to not only defend herself, but she also has defend Alaire. She also has to hope she won't be beaten again as she was when she battled Aldemund. Who is this person who has found them? Why was he waiting in the field for them? 
The night is dark, the rain is falling.... Run while there's a chance. I'll never let you find me.
He laughed and leaned in closer. I could feel his breath each time he exhaled. “Mm, and you cannot think of anything else this lucky man may desire?”
One night... One fight... One breath... One kiss...
And his blue eyes.
Originally I had two characters in this book named after two characters from another book of mine. (Wait, did that make any sense?) The main characters name was Daray --inspired by Daray in Guard the Sacred-- and his father's name was Malvagio --inspired by Daray's father in Guard the Sacred. About halfway through the third chapter reality hit me. Whoa, whoa, whoa, the characters in this book live in France. Malvagio... That's a German word for "evil" or "dark" --I can't remember which and yes, I am too tired to look it up right now. After reminding myself that I changed both of their names to French names. (You're welcome.) For some reason that is just really reassuring now. (See, now we all can sleep after all.)
In one day I have written the first four chapters and I'm almost at 10,000. I know I've said Certain Fate will go up, but just between you and me I think this book must come first because I've gotten addicted to it. (Don't worry, though, Cursed with Power is still and always my main project I'm working on.)
I think it's safe to say Juliana has come along the furthest. I did not know at first what her story was; I did not even understand how her and Leonce would meet. Then, suddenly it came to me. And I know you're wondering how it could come to me. Well, I'll tell you how. I was literally sitting in my room --for almost the entire day--listening to the same five songs over and over again. (Not kidding; ask anyone who knows me.) One song, above all hit me the most with what Juliana's main story to her life is. 
Across this lake lays a destiny to be determined. Or perhaps just more mountains... Either way, Leonce and Juliana are coming across that lake. Soon you will be able to read how they do just this. You will read their stories, as they unfold them to you, and in the back of your mind you may remember the voice giving you someone to talk to.
Memories are part of our lives. They follow us, but for Celestria... Memories haunt her. They are like ghosts...they are like falcons, swallowing her as they might a worm. If she did not have the horrid memories of her past, perhaps she never would have become the person she did. However, that is not the case. The truth of the matter is everything that has occurred in her life cannot be undone.
And while she spends the entire night up there are only two thoughts on her mind:
And in case you couldn't remember, this is a image from the music video "Bye bye bye" by Nsync. Remember those guys? I fell in love with them, despite my young age at the time when they were around, and yes I am listening to them right now.
Now how distracting is this going to be for me? Ha, probably very distracting. Oh well, off to go into the madness.
