Thursday, December 30, 2010

Chapter 19... Feel Your Touch

I want to know that when you walk away from me, you're that much more determined to come back.  When you cry in my arms, you'll pull in closer toward me.  When I feel the touch of your skin... I want you to feel me too because I've been standing beside you... and I've been standing for much too long. I desire to be with you.

In chapter nineteen of Cursed with Power, Celestria comes to realize a shocking new truth that awaits her in Grefin's manor.  With reality, she must also come to accept some painful yet memorable past occurrences in her life.  At last she may share a bond with someone close to her, but is it already too little too late?  Has Celestria wasted too many years obsessing over the power she possesses?  What is the point to looking back on old memories when they are long gone?

Is this me? I thought. As I twirled back and forth with the dress, I felt foolish. Dyanna had always been the beautiful one; even Aunt Ilena had reminded me of that. The men pranced around her and offered her roses, while I walked ten steps behind her without receiving any attention at all. It had been that way ever since she was born, and after a while I had grown accustomed to it. The red hair that fell down my shoulders suddenly looked perfectly maintained. My green eyes, which I had always thought were dull, glistened with the dress.
“Everybody has always told me you can’t see love. When I look in your eyes, they stand corrected. Celestria, why must you have this effect on me?” Adam had once told me.
Backing away from the mirror, I reasoned with myself that I needed to leave. If I did not return to Alaire they would begin to wonder. I had already taken up enough time, but as I continued debating with myself I could not help but to think back to memories.

A great amount of thought and detail was put into the detail and the events that occurred within this chapter.  Not only did Celestria face something difficult she felt she needed to be said, but she also had to admit to her readers the truth she hides in side.  However, Celestria and the readers both are left with more questions.  While a few truths are brought to the suffer, she is far from uncovering everything she desires to know.
Despite an awkward situation at the end of the chapter, it is evident to both the reader and the author that there are many more chapters ahead.  What lies in the future for Celestria Hale?  What of Alaire Sencler?  Their futures, like their hands, may or may not be intertwined.  Only she can tell you what happens when next you read Cursed with Power.

**The images used in this post are not mine.  They are property of and I do not own them.  The images are to make the post more interesting, but they DO NOT represent any characters, places, etc. in Cursed with Power.**

Be there for the magic:

Sunday, December 26, 2010

Chapter 18.... Every Last Word

I can sit in the rain and shiver as I am soaked.  You really don't have to be anybody special to stand in the rain.  It's just like standing in the middle of a path when two horses are running at you.  Either you move and hurt yourself, or you remain where you are and accept the pain.

From the day Celestria met Alaire, she knew there were secrets he kept from her.  However, she came to accept this because she knew she had secrets of her own.
It's ironic how quickly all of that changed.

Celestria wakes up in the middle of the night to find out Alaire is chocking, coughing, and feels his entire body going numb.  Now is the time to worry.
In this new chapter, Alaire's future is addressed.  It's not him and Celestria arguing about what they've said and done.  No, it's Celestria hoping, praying, wishing Alaire will live... yet she is not too certain he will.
Join her as she comes to discover what he means to her, the feelings she has for him, and quite possibly the secrets he found out about.
Alaire interjected, “Do not go!  Please, Celestria; do not leave me here.  I can feel it now…”
            As he pulled me in closer, I turned my face so our lips did not touch.  Then I asked what I regretted. “What do you feel?”
            One word and that was all it took.  My life just all together flipped over and burned.  Why was this happening to him?  What had he done?  He was more of a decent person than I, yet he was the one dying?  I could not begin to understand it; I listened to his breathing and wished I knew what to do.  This was the time for me to say something that would matter; something with an impact.  I found I was speechless for the first time. 
I know the excerpt is short, but that's because I don't want to give away to much about the chapter.  You need to read it yourself to find out what happens.
 What do you think happens?  Can Alaire live?
Find out, and in chapter 19 Celestria will narrate her reaction and what she has come to realize, accept, and want to take revenge out on.

Be there for the magic:

Merry Christmas

I was unable to post yesterday because obviously it was Christmas, but I thought I'd post today and everyone would be understanding and forgive me.
Hopefully you didn't start your morning out like Buddy did. (As you can see in the photo.)

I had a lovely Christmas, and I hope all of you did as well.  I am always amazed that there are people in this world who follow my blog(s) and can listen to all the madness and insanity I bring up.  You have no idea ho w much respect I have for every single one of you.
As you know, this was my first year blogging.  It's been absolutely amazing!  I love blogging --as if you couldn't tell--and I have met so many fabulous people who I now call my friends because of this.
Through the good, the bad, the writing, the writer's block, the frustration, and everything else in between.... THANK YOU.  I have been blessed to have people like all of you to support me.

Hugs to everyone:)

Be there for the magic: And when you visit, find out about the Cursed with Power 2010 awards!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Chapter 17.... The Bond We Had

Once I thought you were a rose.  Every day you became more beautiful, despite how at the same time you were aging.  
All too soon I came to terms with reality.  If you were a rose you would begin to shrivel in the winter.   You would fear change, and you... Ha, you've never feared much of anything without firstly denying it to everyone around you.

Celestria knows that Alaire's condition is only getting worst, so she begins to think back to a time when she thought her life was ending.  When she was so close to death but managed to escape it.
A man was kneeling beside me; I could not recognize him, and my failing vision did not help me get a better look at him.  He spoke words to me, but I could not understand him.  Either he was not speaking Romanian or all of the senses in my body were ceasing to work, but it did not matter.  In a minute the world went dark around me.  The darkness was almost unbearable…
Above is an excerpt from chapter 9 of Cursed with Power.
She remembers that Alaire saved her life by stopping Aldemund and taking her to Roana.  Why could not Roana help Alaire now in his time of dying?  Why could she not perform a miracle again?
In this chapter, however, there are other matters beside Alaire's condition mentioned.  There is a black sparrow, white and red ribbons, and a bond Alaire mentions that he believes is broken.
What is this bond?  Why does Alaire want to travel to Belsgar?  Who the heck is Emeria?  The answers begin to unravel...
“What kind of ‘friend’ are you anyways?” I asked him.  From the start I had felt uncomfortable around him, but now more than ever I realized everything he had done.  He was a good magician; there was nothing he could gain from helping us.  There was no reason for him to save Alaire’s life.
I continued speaking. “Does holding up your part of the bargain make you a friend?  Do you not realize there is more to friendship than giving and taking?”
“Grefin…” Daciana’s tone rose as she called for him, though he was sitting beside her.  He stood up, which blocked my view of Alaire.  Ignoring Emeria, I moved to stand at the edge of the bed.  Alaire was coughing viscously, and his body jolted as he continued on.  Daciana kept a firm hold onto him as he shook and rocked back and forth without control.  I wiped a tear from the edge of my eye and breathed when he finally returned to being calm.  
 Sometimes you do not realize how much you care about someone until you're standing beside them... watching them take their last breaths.  Until you feel a tear leaving your eye and can gasp what you are about to lose.
What will Celestria do if she loses Alaire?
You ruin every relationship you have with a person.
The quote at the beginning was one I came up with off the top of my head.  I decided I might be adding in quotes relating to images or the chapter at the beginning of these posts for those of you who miss him.
I assure you that even with the holidays I will try to accomplish more of Cursed with Power.  It's about halfway finished, and there are some of you who are just as excited as me for what the ending will turn out to be.
Merry Christmas and happy holidays.

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Thursday, December 23, 2010

Merry Christmas and Happy Holidays

As we all know, the holidays have been approaching.  I looked at my calender and suddenly it's Christmas Eve!  This month I have not been able to blog as I frequently do.  I apologize for this, but I must say that due to the holidays I will most likely not be blogging much until they are over with and the new year is here.  However, I most likely will stop in with updates on Cursed with Power because whether you read them or not I feel I accomplish something by writing them up.

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, and if you do not celebrate Christmas then enjoy the holiday(s) you do celebrate.  Smile, laugh, and be grateful for the people around you.  I truly felt blessed this month with all of the wonderful friends who surround me and can make me laugh no matter what.
Thank you for following this blog.  Whatever madness flows through these posts, I am glad I have not yet scared you away.  I appreciate everyone for following me through the happiness, excitement, disappointment, upsetting moments, and everything in between.  Bare with me and you can watch as they blog continues to grow.  Merry Christmas!


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Monday, December 20, 2010

Chapter 16...... If He Is Watching

Chapter 16
"Sometimes I wonder if He is watching..."
During the moments of silence, darkness, and loss we must accept what comes to us.  We must question what is left, if we have a purpose, and who will ever care.  This is simply what Celestria must do.  She fears --like you might--that she will lost someone who has become a friend to her.  A friend she never had before, and now someone she realizes she does not want to lose.
 Welcome to Grefin's manor.  Alaire told Celestria this was where she would find his friend, but what he did not mention was who Grefin was and why he was significant to what they hope to accomplish.  She knows that the journey into Finton City keeps her from finding out Leal's wellbeing, but with Alaire's life on the line Celestria must set her priorities straight.
And so a strange silence enters the manor.  It fills the rooms, leaves Celestria motionless, and lastly brings out the worst of Celestria's fears.
One small word with a heavy meaning...

“Your supplies?  Perhaps you misunderstood.  This. Cannot. Wait.” I spoke as slowly as possible.  It seemed I needed to repeat myself for Grefin to grasp how urgent this visit was.  His manner of acting nonchalant was pushing me to the edge, and if I lost my temper I could only imagine what would begin.  Another fight was not what I wanted to get involved in, but this was Alaire I was seeking help for.  If he and Grefin had allowed each other to live and had become “friends”, why was Grefin acting as he was?
            “No, I understand perfectly, but I will be of no help if I leave without any materials.  Alaire is strong; I know he is, but he cannot be saved if you fight with me,” Grefin said.  Then, he walked past me and toward the staircase.  I glared, but nonetheless I followed him because he already knew…
            I am begging him. I thought.  When I blinked and my eyes shut for a second, a memory flashed into my head.  The night when I had been crying, and when I had held Alaire’s cross until at last I fell asleep… Walking up the staircase, I felt restless.  How long had I been walking?  For how much longer could I go on like this?
This chapter came together much sooner than I expected, and hopefully for those of you who are avid readers you will enjoy it.  I can say there is a lot of tension and suspense building up, but you can only find out what happens to Alaire by reading the book.
A song that influenced the ending of this chapter was "Hurricane" by 30 Seconds to Mars.  I am posting the song within this update because this song has been inspirational and I like the story within the song.
For the official video, look it up on youtube.  This is just the song itself, but the official music video is 13 minutes long because the band made a short film out of the song and did an excellent job.

If you have not caught up with where you left off, please realize that I am working on chapter 17 now.  I plan to get more done over the winter break that will be starting after the 23rd of this month.  Until the next chapter, read what's new.
Remember, when you leave a comment on Cursed with Power you not only show your support, but you encourage me to keep writing.  Thank you for the continuous feedback.
“You need to be wearing this, Alaire.  I want Him to watch over you when I cannot.”
 Read the new chapter.
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Sunday, December 19, 2010

Sick all night

Alas I did not get much sleep last night.  As you could have figured out from the title of this post, I felt extremely sick and spent most of the sitting up in bed, hoping I would soon feel better.
I'm glad to saying I am feeling a bit better now, but even so I am being cautious because I do not want to feel as if I am on my deathbed again.  I was up until 2 in the morning, and it was just pure madness.  How I have managed to keep my eyes open now is beyond me.  It's terrible I have school tomorrow; no sleeping in for me.
Nonetheless, I wanted to reassure any of you who are worried now that I have lived.  I don't know how, but I'm alive and I feel a bit better.  I am still attempting to recover, and due to this I don't know if I have the energy to write that Christmas story in time for the Teen Inkst.  Maybe before Christmas day I can finish; however, I cannot make any promises.

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Saturday, December 18, 2010

A lot to do

For those of you who are avid followers and are used to my frequent posts, I thought it was only appropriate for me to explain my lack of posts lately.
Let's just face it, with school, college, work, and writing I've got a lot to do.  There is this research essay I have to write on Nicholas II of Russia, and I am arguing in the essay that his wife, Alexandra, is the one to blame for the fall of his reign.  There are four large books on my desk, waiting to be read.  However, I will not be able to read those until tomorrow because in a few hours I have to go to work.
In addition to that, I have three journals for Cursed with Power.  I left them on the pillow beside me last night, and when I woke up this morning they had fallen underneath my bed.  I did not think I would need to keep the two old journals for Cursed with Power, but it turns out there are several times I find myself flipping through them, seeking any kind of information or notes I may have written to myself that can help me with what I'm currently writing.  After all, I think we all are rather worried about Alaire's condition in the book, so I have to be cautious with what happens next.  His life is in my hands... (Wow that must suck for him.)
Besides that my submission for Teen Inkst is due the 20th and I am writing my first short story about Christmas.  You can see the cover on the side bar.  The title is Christmas for Daniel, and I will be posting a summary of it soon when I am able to.  If I cannot finish it before the 20th I'll just go for finishing it before Christmas day.  Maybe someone will be amused and pleased with the story.
And you can thank my teachers for giving me exams on Monday.  Isn't that just lovely?  Tomorrow I will have to study as if there is no tomorrow.

Therefore, my lovely followers, I apologize in advance if tomorrow you do not hear from me much.  If I should happen to finish chapter 16 I will of course post an update.  If anything happens with Christmas for Daniel, I will also post something about that.  However, I will not be able to do my relationships Saturday and I doubt I'll remember to do character Monday.  Maybe once January comes everything will calm down... and maybe by then I will be with the person I have fallen in love with.
Speaking of January...

Remember January 10th is my birthday. Remember that... I expect nice comments from all of you.  Haha just kidding; I just felt like sharing with you all.  Say whatever you like, and comment with whatever you want.

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Thursday, December 16, 2010

Chapter 15... Join the Battle

Chapter 15
Join the Battle
In chapter fifteen of Cursed with Power Celestria and Alaire become wrapped up in an argument with each other.  Despite Alaire's failing health, Celestria cannot help but to yell at him.  He mentions shadows and darkness, and this reminds her all too much of what she's heard before.  After all didn't someone once tell her...
"My talk of shadows is no joke, Miss Hale.  There are dark parts of this world you have not seen before; I can only hope you shall never be exposed to them.”
 Frustrated, Celestria only digs herself deeper into the argument.  While she is annoyed and angry, Alaire expresses how he sees the situation they are in.  He also brings up what he feels she has not accepted since the day she found out she was one of the last Dark magicians.
“I am straining my voice, but I do it because you underestimate what we are stuck in the middle of.  When I first learned Dark magic I was a shadow in the light.  Soon I discovered I could move that shadow, and then…”
            He motioned for me to move closer, but I already thought we were close enough.  I could hear him… Why did he need to make a scene out of what he was saying?  I lowered my head toward his, but I remained cautious. 
            Alaire raised his head to my ear and whispered, “The light was consumed so quickly that even now I do not know where it has gone.”
            Leaning back and returning to the position I had been forced into, I stared at him.  Shadows, lights… I had heard this before.  It was not my mind playing tricks with me; no, I knew who I had heard this from in the past.  
 In this debate with the mentioning of lights, shadows, and war what will happen?  How will this disagreement affect Celestria and Alaire?  Will Alaire live?

Find out all of this and more when you next read Cursed with Power.
 My heart felt as if it had stopped beating.

Be there for the magic:

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Chapter 14..... Blue Eyes

If he was looking at you right now, would you dare to turn around and look back at him?

It took a while for me to post up chapter 14, but last night it went public and now you can read it.  In case you have not read the latest chapter, I am as usual giving you an update.  Hopefully this update will interest you, and if then at least I've tried my best.
Alaire's life is hanging by a thread.  Celestria does not know what's wrong with him and she knows of nothing that can help him.  And that was when it happened.... She was so focused on Alaire, she did not realize...
She had given away their position.
Sometimes it's better to stay out of a fight, but Celestria has no choice.  With Alaire down, she has to not only defend herself, but she also has defend Alaire.  She also has to hope she won't be beaten again as she was when she battled Aldemund.  Who is this person who has found them? Why was he waiting in the field for them?  
Peering ahead, I thought I saw something dart to the side.  I tried to follow its movement, but then a ball of blue mist hit me in the stomach.  Crouching down, I could hear Alaire stirring from his sleep.  In no time at all he would watch as I was beaten.  However, I did not want to lose badly in another fight again.   Whoever had found us now would pay the price.
            “You want to end this?  Show yourself; I’ll fight you face to face.” I shouted.  After I spoke it began to rain, and in moments it was pouring.  My opponent stood up and instantly I performed a spell.  I continued to advance toward him, but when I came within touching distance of him it was evident the spell had not gone as planned.  Black powder covered his body, though the spell had meant to be brutally fatal on the skin.

The night is dark, the rain is falling.... Run while there's a chance.  I'll never let you find me.

In all of the madness, the silence, the fighting, the nightmares, and the pain.... somewhere this is light.  Even in Celestria's life, while she has lost everything and everyone she has ever cared about.  Suddenly the light seems to hit her in the face, and when it does she cannot push it aside.  She cannot put it out of her thoughts because she knows there is more than what there seems to be.
He laughed and leaned in closer.  I could feel his breath each time he exhaled. “Mm, and you cannot think of anything else this lucky man may desire?”
One night... One fight... One breath... One kiss...

And his blue eyes.
*The quotes in this post are excerpts from chapter 14 of Cursed with Power.  The images, however, are not mine and are property of deviantart (except the ones featuring the male model with blue eyes; those were found on google).*

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Thursday, December 9, 2010

Major revisions

It's been a while, so I'm going to try to catch everybody up to what's happening.

Obviously I don't need to tell you that Cursed with Power has gone through a lot.  And the changes it has gone through are greater than anything else.  Well, as you may or may not remember old English was being used in dialog and so forth throughout the book.  I am changing this.  No, I am not getting rid of it because of the complaints I hear much too often.  I know I said I was going to stay with it, but every writer has to let go of something at some point or another.  This is something so small that I have to give up, I really cannot complain.  (Of course I might because of the extra work that is added on.)

So if I cannot blog all the time it is because I have major revisions to do with Cursed with Power.  I have to change all of the language --for a third time--and while I'm doing that I have to continue on with the next chapter and etc etc.

Luckily, I planned out chapter 15-22 today, so it's safe to say I have an idea of what I'm going to be doing for the next good amount of chapters.  Maybe that means the chapters will be finished in a more timely fashion, and maybe it won't have all that much of an effect.  All the same, I thank all of you who have supported me with this difficult decision I've made.  For those of you who loved the old English and said "old english is ftw!", I truly cannot thank you enough.
As always, I will continue sharing with you progress I make with the book.

Be there for the magic:

Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Arisen Darkness *public now*

That's right, you've read correctly.  Arisen Darkness is finally public on inkpop.  It took me forever to get the book public because of word count --I had 10k, but it came out 5 words short the first time--but at last it is here.  Despite the late hour I thought I would share with you that it has indeed released.
This means it's going on the "new release" page and being taken off the "coming soon" page.  Continue to check this pages since they are constantly being updated.

Also, eventually sometime this week I have to inform you about a rather major decision I made about something in Cursed with Power.  However, I do not know when I will find the time for that post.

Read Arisen Darkness here.  Enjoy!
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Sunday, December 5, 2010

A day with Arisen Darkness

The title explains it all --this is why I haven't finished chapter 14, haven't blogged earlier today, and have been losing my mind all day.  Like I told my friend, you have to be slightly insane to write.  (He doesn't believe me about that, though...)
My post about the making of STRONGER will be coming another time.  For now I must talk about Arisen Darkness because there is a fair chance it may go pubic tomorrow.  No promises, though; I can only write as much as my mind allows me to think.
A new summary will be coming up for Arisen Darkness because man has this book developed since day one.  Want to hear about it?  Too bad, I'm going to tell you about it whether you like it or no.
Originally I had two characters in this book named after two characters from another book of mine.  (Wait, did that make any sense?)  The main characters name was Daray --inspired by Daray in Guard the Sacred-- and his father's name was Malvagio --inspired by Daray's father in Guard the Sacred.  About halfway through the third chapter reality hit me.  Whoa, whoa, whoa, the characters in this book live in France.  Malvagio... That's a German word for "evil" or "dark" --I can't remember which and yes, I am too tired to look it up right now.  After reminding myself that I changed both of their names to French names.  (You're welcome.)  For some reason that is just really reassuring now.  (See, now we all can sleep after all.)
In one day I have written the first four chapters and I'm almost at 10,000.  I know I've said Certain Fate will go up, but just between you and me I think this book must come first because I've gotten addicted to it.  (Don't worry, though, Cursed with Power is still and always my main project I'm working on.)
Daray's name has changed to Leonce.  (There's an accent on the first "e" but again, am I really going to bother with copying an accent from Word?  Nope, not right now.)  He's certainly developed,  but...
I think it's safe to say Juliana has come along the furthest.  I did not know at first what her story was; I did not even understand how her and Leonce would meet.  Then, suddenly it came to me.  And I know you're wondering how it could come to me.  Well, I'll tell you how.  I was literally sitting in my room --for almost the entire day--listening to the same five songs over and over again.  (Not kidding; ask anyone who knows me.)  One song, above all hit me the most with what Juliana's main story to her life is.  

The open wound she hides
She just keeps it bundled up
And never lets it show
She can't take much more of this
But she can't let it go
And that's ok, she don't want the world

All the things she says
While he's just lying there
Without someone to hear her cry
She slips off into a dream
About a place to hide
And that's ok, she don't want the world

This love she feels
Everything she's ever known
Or ever thought was real
Seems like it's been thrown away
Now how's she gonna live
It's ok, she don't want the world

Those words he never spoke
Haunt her life, the memories
Of all the times before
She tried to show him love
While he would only ask for more
But it's ok, she don't want the world

Softly in her sleep
Pictures of the life she's longing
For slowly appear
She's seen them all before
But somehow never quite this clear
She just smiles, she don't want the world

This love she feels
Everything she's ever known
Or ever thought was real
Seems like it's been thrown away
Now how's she gonna live
It's ok, she don't want the world

A brand new morning shines
As she wakes up alone again
This time to face the day
She swears there's time to make it
As she simply walks away
And it's ok, she don't want the world
The song is called "She don't want the world" by 3 doors down.  If you've never listened to it before you definitely should. It's a brilliant song with an amazing meaning behind it.
Across this lake lays a destiny to be determined.  Or perhaps just more mountains... Either way, Leonce and Juliana are coming across that lake.  Soon you will be able to read how they do just this.  You will read their stories, as they unfold them to you, and in the back of your mind you may remember the voice giving you someone to talk to.
Playground school bell rings again
Rain clouds come to play again
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello I'm your mind giving you someone to talk to

If I smile and don't believe
Soon I know I'll wake from this dream
Don't try to fix me, I'm not broken
Hello I am the lie living for you so you can hide
Don't cry

Suddenly I know I'm not sleeping
Hello I'm still here
All that's left of yesterday
"Hello" by Evanescene

Hope you will read the book when it's public.  I am very excited to share the story with you.  Please remember I do not own the lyrics or the pictures in this post.
Be there for the magic:

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Alaire and Vinur *inspirational picture*

Just thought I would share with you briefly a picture I came across a few days ago that really kept me going with Cursed with Power.  I was staring at this picture for several minutes that day, trying to find the inspiration to keep writing.  This picture did just that because it really shows exactly how close Alaire and Vinur are.  While it may not be fully expressed in this book about their bond, it definitely will be revealed later on.

Now I must return to writing.  Alaire's fate has yet to be determined...

Before I go, think on this: Have you ever been so close to a person/animal you would tell them everything?  Who could you trust all of your secrets with?
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Chapter 13...Awake

Memories are part of our lives.  They follow us, but for Celestria... Memories haunt her.  They are like ghosts...they are like falcons, swallowing her as they might a worm.  If she did not have the horrid memories of her past, perhaps she never would have become the person she did.  However, that is not the case.  The truth of the matter is everything that has occurred in her life cannot be undone.
Sometimes it is these memories alone that bring back the darkest moments of life.  Sometimes it is what you know in your mind that you fear the most in your heart.
And while she spends the entire night up there are only two thoughts on her mind:
Will Alaire live?
How did she ever get involved in all of this?

Excerpt from the chapter: “If I do not sleep I can keep myself from dreaming.  Thou cannot imagine what these dreams do to me.  They are like ghosts; they haunt me.  They are like falcons; they swoop down on me and have no mercy.”
            His hand touched mine, and he asked, “Why?”
            “My dreams bring back memories… Memories I do not care to remember.  Every time it gets worst and Dyanna haunts me the most.  She is dead, yet she seems to be mocking the truth I shall never know.  I will never know what happened to my Aunt Ilena, and she will never understand why I acted as I did.” I explained.  I moved my hand away from his when I finished.  There was something that did not seem right about that…

There was new material added into this chapter about Aunt Ilena.  I thought of the ideas one night and decided it needed to be added in, though now I think I may have to change the flow of chapter one.  The first scene about the dream will remain the same.  However, there is a bit that may need changing because I am hearing much too often that I'm "telling not showing" in that chapter.  Chapter 13 took me a bit of a while to finish because of the new additions I have added in and because Alaire's fate I am still attempting to determine.  As I work on chapter 14 it is difficult to say what will happen next for him.
Of course, if you haven't caught up in the story you have no idea what I am talking about.  Alaire, who is he?  Don't worry, I won't give away anything major as I continue with these updates.  This is merely for your convenience and I would never ruin a surprise for you.

Try to stay awake.  It may be all that keeps the nightmares from coming....

The images used in this post are not those of my own.  They are property of deviantart and all credit goes to the creators.

Be there for the magic:

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Coming later...

Unfortunately today is a very busy day for me.  I have loads of homework, and I have to work this evening so who knows how long I'll be caught up in this and that.
All the same, I wanted to let you know that later --not today but probably more like tomorrow or Saturday--I will be posting about how I failed Nano, and then I'll do a post about how STRONGER came about and etc. etc.  It's already at 935 in ranking.  Thanks everyone for all of the support.  It means so much to me; you already knew that of course.

However, I do promise chapter 13 will be posted public at some point or another tonight.  The new cover was made by yours truly.  I spent three days, trying out different covers.  At last I came across this one and it just worked so perfectly.  I mean, come on the butterfly goes with the scene in the beginning of the book and it's dark and mysterious and beautiful.
At 325 in ranking.  Maybe it can soon reach 200?  Maybe?  I'm willing to do anything to get to 200; I'm even crazy enough to swap with people.  (God have mercy on me....)

Now that I'm off to work on my homework I'll have to leave you with...
And in case you couldn't remember, this is a image from the music video "Bye bye bye" by Nsync.  Remember those guys?  I fell in love with them, despite my young age at the time when they were around, and yes I am listening to them right now.
Now how distracting is this going to be for me?  Ha, probably very distracting.  Oh well, off to go into the madness.
If I never return you can assume it consumed me.....but let's hope that never happens.
Be there for the magic: